Monday, December 26, 2011

A Different Kind of Overwhelmed



Every good thing bestowed
and every perfect gift
is from above,
coming down from the Father of lights,
with whom there is no variation, or shifting shadow.
James 1:17

One of my favorite things about Christmas is watching my husband pick out gifts for our little boys. He loves being the gift-giver and takes such delight in trying to find just the perfect things for each of them. I tend to be the practical and conservative one in the family, yet I love being married to a man that is unbelievably generous and is like an overgrown kid at Christmastime! :) He LOVES Christmas, and I love that he loves it so much! He has spent so much time over the past few months trying to balance our plan to downsize and simplify gift-giving this year, but still come up with presents that the boys would love. 

When Christmas morning finally dawned, I'm not sure who was more excited, the boys or Will! As I watched ALL of my boys (especially Will) filled with such joy in both the giving and the receiving of gifts, I could not help but think about the Father heart of God. This year on Christmas morning, I loved listening to the sounds of laughter and seeing the expressions of delight and surprise. And in the midst of the crazy chaos, I could not help but be overwhelmed with my own Father's goodness, faithfulness, and grace to me and to these that I love so much!

As I watched Will go from one boy to the next, talking about their new toys and putting things together for them, it was a perfect reminder how our Heavenly Father does the same for us. These four boys have a Daddy that loves giving good things, and we have a Father that also takes such delight in giving us good things! His mercies are new every morning. His grace is more than we can comprehend. His faithfulness reaches to the skies. He gave us the perfect gift in Jesus, and He blesses us each and every day with His lavish love.

Some gifts this year were really big...


Some gifts were smaller but carried more meaning and significance...


There were some gifts that everybody wanted to get their hands on...


And when all the presents were opened and the boys and their Daddy began playing, building, and putting things together, I continued to reflect on how Will's heart and love for his boys is such a picture of God's heart for me. He has blessed me with a husband that loves me, a houseful of little boys, a little girl halfway around the world, and, this year, the Lord has blessed our family with a surprise...

Will and I decided not to give gifts to one another this Christmas (especially since very soon we will buying plane tickets to Bulgaria), but we received the most perfect gift this year anyway- one that we never could have imagined! WE ARE PREGNANT!!! It seems that the Lord is growing our family in more ways than one this year and we could not be more thrilled! We told the boys and our family our good news on Christmas Eve, and we are CELEBRATING this new little life, God's good and perfect gift to our family!

We believe 100 percent that this baby is indeed God's good and perfect gift to us under these exact circumstances and at just this perfect time! From the very beginning of our marriage, Will and I have been trusting the Lord with the boundaries of our family. We have gone through stretches of having babies so close together that at one point we had three in diapers and our oldest son had just turned two when our third little boy was born! We also have gone through a season of infertility before our fourth little boy was born almost a year ago. All of this is to say that we have no doubt that the Lord alone is the giver of life! He is the One who told us to adopt Sophi. He knows the timeline of her adoption, and He knows the date this baby will be born. It is all in His hands. His timing is just right. He makes no mistakes. He is not surprised one bit even when we are surprised. His multiplication of our family is perfect. He is the author of this story, and we are rejoicing in all that He is doing and will do. I know that there will be many opinions about pregnancy in the middle of our adoption. I know there will be lots of comments and concerns about us having such a large family. However, Will and I have been reminded many times lately that our faith should not rest in the wisdom of man, but in the power of God. God's wisdom might seem to this world and to many people as foolishness, but tonight we are joyfully going down this "path of foolishness."

The Lord has already gone before us and moved MANY mountains in terms of how this pregnancy will affect Sophi's adoption, and we are SO thankful for the ways that the Lord has been at work! We need much prayer in the coming months as we trust in the Lord's perfect timing and provision to bring both Sophi into our family as well as this new baby. We are praying in faith and hoping that Sophi will come home before we have this new baby. It will take a miracle, but we believe that God is able to do exceedingly beyond what we could ever ask or imagine! This little one is a perfect reminder of that promise!

If I am completely honest, there have been times lately that I have been overwhelmed about all of the transitions that I know are ahead for our family! Sometimes when I think about having SIX small children (remember, our oldest son is only six), I cannot even imagine what life will look like. How will we fit them all into our house? How will we fit them all into our van? How will we afford to pay for all of their needs? How will we have the energy and patience and love we will need to be their parents? How will I find the time to clip 60 little fingernails and 60 little toenails? So many questions...

But over and over and over again, the Lord has faithfully turned this overwhelmed feeling into a different kind of overwhelmed. Yes, I am sure there will be many, many times in the coming months that I will be overwhelmed with the requirements, responsibilities, and demands of being the mom to 6 kids. But, the truest and most honest description of my heart tonight is being overwhelmed with the Lord's grace and mercy to entrust me and Will with each of these little ones. Lord, thank you for the overwhelming blessing of being the parents to these precious gifts. Thank you for the lives of Web, Palmer, Hank, Barrett, Sophi, and this new little Blackmon yet to be born! Thank you that You are the Perfect Gift-Giver!


We hope you and your family enjoyed a wonderful Christmas and we wish you a HAPPY, HAPPY 2012! We pray that the Lord's peace and grace will be MULTIPLIED to you this coming year!



We will not conceal them from their children,
but tell to the generations yet to come the praises of the Lord,
and His strength and His wondrous works that He has done...
that the generation to come might know,
even the children yet to be born,
that they may arise and tell them to their children,
that they should put their confidence in God,
and not forget the works of God,
but keep His commandments...
Psalm 78:4, 6-7

XOXO





5 comments:

  1. That was one of the most powerfully well said posts. I am so happy for you and you are so right when you said this is God's plan and He knows all. We also have a large family and when comments are made about our hands being full we usually reply either "yes full of blessings" or "better to be full and content than to be empty and sad". Best of wishes!

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  2. Psalm 78:4-7. The exact verses that were prayed over my life when I was born ten years after you, Melanie. Just as my life was a surprise to many, it did not surprise God at all. All the days ordained for me were written in His book before one of them came to be. Likewise, this new baby is part of a beautiful life story that God has written. I celebrate with you and Will about this precious gift of new life. Praise be to the Lord Jesus Christ, the giver of every good and perfect gift!

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  3. I am so happy for you! You are indeed blessed with (in my humble opinion) the greatest earthly blessings - children! :) I will pray with you for all the details and timelines... this will be a great story to watch unfold!

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  4. Oh, Melanie!!! How exciting! Congratulations!

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