You created every part of me;
you put me together in my mother's womb.
I praise You because You are to be feared;
all You do is strange and wonderful.
I know it with all my heart.
When my bones were being formed,
carefully put together in my mother's womb,
when I was growing there in secret,
You knew that I was there,
You saw me before I was born.
The days allotted to me
had all been recorded in Your book,
before any one of them ever began...
It is a very strange and wonderful thing to know that before the foundations of the world were formed, the Lord already knew that this little person would be part of our family! He has known all along that in the VERY MIDDLE of our adoption of S, this newest little life would be created, knitted together, and growing in secret in my womb! As I watched these tiny feet kick and saw these sweet little hands waving around, I could not help but ponder these verses from Psalms. No matter how many times I have heard the beating of a baby's heart inside of me, I am always amazed at the miracle of life! It is, indeed, a strange and wonderful thing, and tonight we are celebrating this healthy baby that we saw on my ultrasound earlier today!
It is also a great comfort to know that the Lord ALREADY knows the day that this baby will be born. And even though we are still trying to nail down my actual due date, (we believe we will meet this Blackmon sometime during the first few weeks of June) the Lord ALREADY knows. I can rest assured in His perfect knowledge and complete understanding of every detail of this crazy, crazy story! :) Every single day of this little life has already been allotted. They have all been prepared even before one of them began! It is a strange and wonderful thing to know this truth!
It is equally strange and wonderful to think about this little girl and to know that the Lord ALSO knew before the foundations of the world the exact time that she would join our family and become a Blackmon...
As I look at her little hands and crazy-striped stocking feet, I think about all of the milestones I have missed in her 5 1/2 years of life... her first smile, her first words, her first steps...
I will never have a picture of her on her birth date. I will never know what this 6 pound and 15 ounce baby girl looked like on the 12th day of April in 2006...
In my mind, there are so many pieces missing to her story. There are so many things unknown. Even though we will learn more very soon when we get to meet her, there will always be questions unanswered...
It is almost more than I can comprehend to think that the Lord ALREADY knew that S would be our little girl. In all of the parts of this story that are beyond my grasp, I know that our precious S has ALWAYS been known by our Father. He has numbered all her days. He has never missed a moment of her life. He has watched her each day that she has been in that orphanage without a momma and a daddy, and He ALONE has carried her, provided for her, protected her, and loved her in a way that is more strange and more wonderful than I am able to communicate!
Lord, You have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I stand up;
You understand my thoughts from far away.
You observe my travels and my rest;
You are aware of all my ways,
Before a word is on my tongue,
You know all about it, Lord.
You have encircled me;
You have placed Your hand on me.
This extraordinary knowledge is beyond me...
Thank You, Lord, for each of these little lives!
Thank You that I can celebrate all that is known and that I can trust You for all that is unknown!
It is ALL strange and wonderful!
To You be the glory for the great things You have done, are doing, and will do!