So let us know, let us press on to know the Lord.
His going forth is as certain as the dawn;
And He will come to us like the rain,
Like the spring rain watering the earth.
What an amazing promise and one that I have clung to over and over again this spring!
His going forth is as CERTAIN as the dawn...
And He WILL come...
Faithfully, He will come like the rain! He has come! He has met me right where I have been, morning by morning, just like the dawn. Morning after morning, sleepless night after sleepless night, He has faithfully carried me through this pregnancy and this adoption journey. He has upheld me, strengthened me, and filled me with such HOPE! I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am to get our little S home and to meet our newest Blackmon baby. This spring I have watched my 3 big boys turn into such good big brothers to Barrett, and I know they will do the same for S. They love making Barrett laugh, and he is always right on their heels, following them, chasing them, going wherever they are going, and copying exactly what they are doing! It's been fun to watch Barrett's transformation as he has changed from a baby to one of the boys! I am also so hopeful about how the Lord is going to do a transforming work in Sophi's life and begin to bring about the healing that I know her little heart, mind, and body so desperately need! I can't wait to see how S and this newest baby will fit into the mix. It's going to be one lively and energetic crew!
I am so thankful for the countless ways that the Lord has filled me with HOPE this spring! We've spent the majority of our days outside (hence the lack of blog posts) enjoying the amazing spring weather, and it has been so good for my soul! Most days we look like a bunch of ragamuffins with dirty hands, sand between our toes, and grubby, mismatched clothes, but this is the beauty of being able to stay at home, and I have loved it! I have treasured these days, soaking up the sun and getting to watch my boys be little boys. We've done a little bit of school and a lot of playing! We've eaten a bunch of popsicles and been to the beach! Mainly, we've just hung out in our own little neck of the woods, planting flowers and our summer vegetable garden and now watching them grow and trying to keep Barrett from pulling the blooms and unripe veggies! A few days ago, we had a backyard baseball game with one very unripe green tomato that somehow found its way off the vine a tad bit early. Something tells me that S might have that same mischievous sparkle in her big brown eyes when she sees my backyard full of blooms. I'm guessing that she's never seen pretty flowers in her life, and I can only imagine that there might be a few more flowers plucked!
These have been fun and full days, but you can rest assured that there have also been many "in-between moments." There are times that the thought of 2 more little people to care for has been beyond overwhelming. I'm remembering what it was like to have 3 in diapers, and I know it won't be long before I'm back in that very same spot. There are definitely times when the doubts and fears creep in, and I wonder how in the world we will make it work and how I will have the patience and energy to take care of SIX little ones under the age of seven! Lord, fill me with hope...
As spring turns into summer, and I know that our little family is about to go through some major changes, I am continuing to pray for a spirit of hope to fill my heart and our home. I am praying for each of the boys' hearts to be prepared as we will welcome home S and a new little baby very soon! I know that the timing will be just right, and I am so looking forward to the day when we are all under the same roof! On our way home from our first trip to Bulgaria, I read the book Trusting God by Jerry Bridges, and since then I've re-read it several times. I have been constantly reminded that God's purposes are always for our good and for His glory. I had always hoped that S would be home before we had the baby, but I know without a doubt that God knows what is best for each one of us. More than at any other time throughout this entire adoption journey, I have been able to rest (often uncomfortably and sometimes impatiently), but nonetheless REST in His perfect timing! I can't wait to see how it all unfolds, and I have a feeling it won't be long before this little baby is going to be making his or her debut!
Here's a few pictures! I hope you enjoy a glimpse of our springtime!
Now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.