Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.
When I look through her medical file and read words like spina bifida and vertical gaze palsy and Arnold Chiari Syndrome, it's easy to imagine the worst-case scenario. I dwell on how severe her need might be, how many surgeries she might require, and how different and difficult life might be with a child who is unable to walk. And I've shared this before, and I'm sure that I will share it again as we walk further and further down this road. There are many times that I become the one who is paralyzed. Paralyzed by fear, by doubts, by an overwhelming sense of the magnitude of how much life will change when this little one joins our family.
But not so much for Barrett. He looks at her picture and, well, her need is not nearly so worrisome or complicated. In his little mind, all she needs is one thing. He thinks in his childish innocence that a band-aid will solve all her problems and make her all better. And I love that! Because the truth is that all she really does need is just one thing. And I'm not talking about a Momma or a Daddy or a new family or some cutting-edge surgery to miraculously make her walk...Sure, all those things would be really good things for this precious little girl. But it's not The Best Thing. It's not The One Thing she truly needs.
A bandaid? He's far more. He's her Father, her Comforter, her Helper, her Defender, her Healer, and He alone is able to transform every hurting, broken place in her heart, in her mind, and also in her tiny, crippled body. He's never left her side. He's there with her now, and He's moving mountains to bring her out of that darkness and into our family. And, oh my, what an amazing honor and privilege it will be to speak His name into her ear and sing the words that her older sister now knows by heart. I can't wait for Faith Ana to hear those words for the first time and one day to join Sophi in singing along.
Jesus loves you, this I know!
For the Bible tells me so.
There are countless verses I could show you. Numerous passages in Scriptures that remind us God's heart for little children, but this one in particular the Lord keeps bringing to my mind.
and the disciples rebuked them. "Permit the children to come to Me; Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it at all." And He took them in His arms and began blessing them, laying His hands upon them.