Wednesday, August 28, 2013


It was a day of firsts!

It was the first day of school for the boys, and it was the first day of school for S.

And this year, we actually needed backpacks and lunch boxes and school uniforms. Not to mention our alarm clocks. It was a coordinated and well-planned effort to get these 6 little people fed, dressed, and out the door by 7:30...

But we made it, and most of them were even smiling by the time we loaded up!

I'm smiling too as I look at these little faces and see an unbelievable picture of our Father's perfect provision. Perfectly sovereign and perfectly good. I am ever so slowly learning to trust Him that He does indeed know what is best for each one of us. Many prayers have been lifted up this summer as we have been seeking direction for each of the kids about school. Today many, many, MANY of those prayers were answered, and they were answered in big ways and with a countless number of surprise blessings!

The 3 big boys have the amazing opportunity of going to a small Christian school just down the street from our house. It's where Web went to kindergarten a few years back before we began homeschooling, and it's also where I went to school as a little girl. I have many sweet memories from this special place, and we feel truly blessed by the surprising and bountiful ways the Lord provided this opportunity that we would never have been able to afford on our own. I cannot even begin to describe what perfectly perfect provision this is for our family at just the perfect time.

S started school today, too. This is something that has been in the works since early in the summer as we've been trusting the Lord to show us how to help her grow and thrive. Never did I imagine that this is where we would be led, and I am truly amazed at how the Lord worked out so many details to bring me to a place of even being willing to consider public school as an option for her. I've had to lay down many fears of how this will affect her attachment with us, but the Lord has faithfully led us here, and we are trusting Him that He knows absolutely what is best for S. This week she started going to one of our local elementary schools in a special self-contained class where she will receive speech therapy and occupational therapy on a daily basis. There is no doubt in my mind that the Lord has orchestrated this opportunity for her, putting together a team of teachers and therapists that have a heart for helping her learn {and many of whom also have hearts for the Lord}, and we are very hopeful that this will be exactly what she needs.

I also feel incredibly blessed to have a little window of time every morning with just these 2 littles ones! 

As much as I have enjoyed homeschooling, I feel like an unbelievably big load has been lifted off my shoulders this fall. Today was a gift on so many levels, and I finally feel like I have a chance to catch my breath after an incredibly challenging summer. 

When I think back on all we have been through this past year and when I consider all of the changes that will be heading our way in the coming months, I cannot help but smile at the ways the Lord is providing. I am incredibly grateful for His mercies that just never stop coming, for the ways that He is providing for our family, and for His faithfulness to gently lead us even when we can't see the way in front of us. 

John Newton, author of the hymn, "Amazing Grace," watched cancer slowly and painfully kill his wife over a period of many months. In recounting those days, John Newton said:

I believe it was about two or three months before her death, when I was walking up and down the room, offering disjointed prayers from a heart torn with distress, that a thought suddenly struck me, with unusual force, to this effect - "The promises of God must be true; surely the Lord will help me, if I am willing to be helped!

It occurred to me, that we are often led... {from an undue regard of our feelings}, to indulge that unprofitable grief which both our duty and our peace require us to resist to the utmost of our power. I instantly said aloud, "Lord, I am helpless indeed, in myself, but I hope I am willing, without reserve, that Thou shouldest help me."

More to come soon, but, in the meantime, know my heart is smiling and full of much gratitude for the help He is giving. It's coming in ways that I never imagined or thought possible, but I am thankful and very overwhelmed with His perfect care...

...but He cares for you. He is not just there with you. He cares for you. His care is constant - not occasional or sporadic. His care is total - even the very hairs of your head are numbered. His care is sovereign - nothing can touch you that He does not allow.

His care is infinitely wise and good so that again in the words of John Newton, "If it were possible for me to alter any part of His plan, I could only spoil it."

Trust is not a passive state of mind. It is a vigorous act of the soul by which we choose to lay hold of the promises of God and cling to them despite the adversity that at times seeks to overwhelm us.

Jerry Bridges, Trusting God

for He Himself has said, 
"I will never desert you, not will I ever forsake you,"
so that we confidently say,
"The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid..."

Hebrews 13:5-6


1 comment:

  1. CONGRATS on your latest pregnancy blessing! What an incredible journey you're on and what a joy to be able to read about it through your blog. Thank you for sharing your life with others.